My sophomore year was a rocky roller coaster experience. I came in really excited because the soccer team had gotten a new coach and I was antsy to get the season started. I wanted to become one of the key players in the team and with a new coach, this was the perfect opportunity. As the season progressed so did our positive results, I liked our new coach and his system of playing because it made a lot of sense. When you understand something and see results it is easier to “buy in” to the vision. I truly believed in the vision but struggled to get playing time. In sports and just like anything in life, the way you perceive things influences the way you act and I believed that our new coach didn’t like me (he actually liked me a lot). This ultimately affected my performance during practice which reflected game time. During this time I was also struggling with finding my purpose in life which also affected my performance in school. About midway through the season, I had a mental shift and started playing without second-guessing my abilities. I was in the flow state. With this mental shift, I ended up breaking into the starting eleven and becoming a key component for the team in the spring. I broke free from the mental bondage that was holding me back from playing the way I knew I could. I briefly mentioned my struggles with finding my purpose in life and although I was able to perform on the field, outside the field I wasn’t well. I finished sophomore year with the same battles which affected my whole sophomore experience. I concluded that Gordon is not the path for me at the moment. As of now, I am living on Martha's Vineyard working full-time as an apprentice for Merritt Electric. I am doing the licensing night classes at the high school and I admit that those struggles have lessened; being home and giving back to my church and soccer community has helped me greatly. I am forever grateful for MVYouth and all the support that I have received!